My beloved Mr. Munchie was diagnosed with diabetes yesterday. I'm still angry and suspicious that the arthritis medicine he is on is forcing his body to emit false signs of diabetes, but the sudden cloudy eyes, continual weight loss, his constant need to drink and pee and his blood glucose level of 419 is stacking up the real evidence for a positive diabetes case. It's a sticky situation to be in - holding the fate of someone else's life in your hands - every decision is critical. Do you stop the arthritis meds for 2 weeks in hopes that the symptoms will go away and demand that the Vet indulge me by retesting the blood? If you choose this path you risk Munchie's quality of life by letting the arthritis aches and pain come roaring back. The information online is dizzying as far as diabetes - expensive and lonely hospital stays, curves, needles, numbers, hypoglycemia, possible death from improper monitoring. This is heady stuff to consider.
I'm stuck in limbo as far as decision making goes right now and the steamy, rainy weather outside isn't doing anything to lift my spirits. Everything in life boils down to money and I don't want that to be a factor in keeping Munchie comfortable and vibrant.
Munchie has taught me so much about life in the 8 short years since he came to me - patience, unconditional love, how to put someone else's needs ahead of your own when that other person has no voice. While Munchie has bestowed all these invaluable gifts, at the same time I just don't know if I could ever find the strength to share my life with another animal again - I hate thinking like that because there are so many animals in need and Munchie truly makes life worth living.
I guess our little Trinity will be setting sail for a new adventure together. The saddest part is that we will set sail as a trinity, but at the end of the journey return home just Herc and me.
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